It's 1am. Prettty dang late. How do I articulate the dealings of my heart if I don't know how to interpret the dealings there in?
It's a discouraging time. I feel like quitting, but I won't. I feel like giving up and throwing in the towel yet I know I am close to something and it's just what the enemy wants. My vision does feel a little bit cloudy. I have been a little bit discouraged since my conversation with tom last Friday. I know he didn't mean it but it makes me want to quit trying. Its difficult to dream when you feel like your dream is subject to someone elses reality or past realities.
My heart once was heavy for world movement and action and now i'm mostly concerned with how I am going to make a quick buck so that I can survive. My compassion is buried in a coffin along with free time and the outdoors.
I think i'm on the road to burnout because I have been trying to make this all happen in my own strength and so far nothing has been happenning. I want to be free from the cynical voices in my head. The criticisms and dark dogma.
Where is simple thoughts And Jesus melodys?
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